I finally took a few stitches on this piece yesterday. It started last summer when I specifically hand dyed some fabric to make this. I stamped and stenciled it and even layered it with batting and backing ready to stitch. And then I set it aside. Even when I’ve yearned for something to stitch on, I’ve left it alone, started new things instead. This is a great piece of work. I love the idea, I love how it’s turning out, It’s going to be great. So why am I procrastinating about finishing it? And more important, why do I procrastinate so much with all my art?
I just read this article written by metalsmith Andy Cooperman and it rang so familiar. Yep, I procrastinate by buying stuff. And I procrastinate by taking classes (Oh, I just need to learn this technique and then I can make all the amazing art in my head!). I procrastinate by starting new projects instead of working on the ones already in progress. I procrastinate because I get overwhelmed with ideas. And I get frustrated with myself for procrastinating. I have to work hard on Sunday nights to keep from beating myself up over all the art I didn’t make over the weekend. And I wonder what is wrong with me – I’ve got lots of ideas, why don’t I have the drive to complete them?
The idea of linking fear to my procrastination is one I haven’t considered, but it’s an idea with a lot of validity. I definitely put off working on or even starting some ideas because I’m afraid I’ll screw them up. And I put off putting my work out there for sale because just think of how embarrassed I’ll be if no one likes it. Or if I offer a class and no one signs up? And here’s one that addresses my problem with the piece in the picture “Ok, this is good, but when it’s finished, what will I do next?” I start a LOT of work in search of my next great shiny idea.
I’m not sure where I go from here. I’ve identified the fear but what do I do about it? How do I address it? I guess for now I’ll just keep stitching…